Have you ever felt so worthless? Like you’re not good enough for anything? That’s how I feel now, at this exact moment.
I hate how people say that as long as you’ve tried your best, nothing else matters. They fail to realize that it does matter.
I know I’ve studied hard enough but I don’t get the grades I want. “It’s okay! I know you’ve done your best.” I hate hearing that sentence alright?! If have a minimum requirement to meet. So what if I’ve done my best? If I don’t meet that requirement, I’m still not going to get into what I want to pursue. Doing my best isn’t the good enough.
People have to accept that sometimes just doing your best isn’t good enough. In this world where education is so demanding, your best will NEVER be good enough. You have to be good enough for others. You have to meet their expectations or you’re never going to get that job or that school or that degree.
That’s just how life is. It isn’t about pleasing yourself anymore. It’s about pleasing others. So what if I’m satisfied with my results? So what if I have improved? It doesn’t matter because I didn’t meet the requirements! I am going nowhere. Where does doing my best lead me? Fucking nowhere.
I’m just afraid that even when I give my best it wouldn’t be good enough in the eyes of others.